immersed in a somber melody that’s reverberating over, and over, and over, and over, and over again. searing convictions, one after the other, have been resonating in my heart all day and just can’t be discounted..
break my heart for what breaks Yours.
even when we mutter a myriad of bold prayers without understanding the gravity of our cries, with only a feeble grasp of the impeccability with which You answer.. oh God, how You remember even our faintest whispers.
why must i always be slapped in the face so brutally in order for my narcissistic self to just take a step back and be reminded that Life isn’t about me. that i am so incredibly blessed, simply for knowing the love of Christ. that He has called me to so much more.
the intensity with which this has struck me might be a bit strange considering i never really knew you, but the fact that i even recognize your face and remember you from my math discussion last year has left me so.. overwhelmed. so completely mortified and heavy-hearted. and all i can say is that i’m sorry. on behalf of anyone who knew you, yet apparently didn’t really know you- i’m sorry. for having such a myopic perspective and for being so egotistical, for coming to this realization too late, for the pain you must have been going through- i’m sorry.
May 8, 2012. Rest in Peace.
you’ve touched the lives of many..
every soul has an ever so desperate yearning to be heard, to be comforted, to be healed.
love. everything comes down to Love.
Lord.. You’ve truly shaken me..
now have Your way in me God.