"Imagine yourself as a living house. God comes in to rebuild that house. At first, perhaps, you can understand what He is doing. He is getting the drains right and stopping the leaks in the roof and so on; you knew that those jobs needed doing and so you are not surprised. But presently He starts knocking the house about in a way that hurts abominably and does not seem to make any sense. What on earth is He up to? The explanation is that He is building quite a different house from the one you thought of - throwing out a new wing here, putting on an extra floor there, running up towers, making courtyards. You thought you were being made into a decent little cottage: but He is building a palace. He intends to come and live in it Himself."
-C.S. Lewis (via jspark3000)"Go to any large city in the world with thousands of people in the street, walk down the sidewalk, stop, and look up. Pretty soon you’ll have twenty people around you looking at you and looking up and trying to look at what you’re looking at. That’s how you direct worship. That people look at you only long enough to try to find out what you’re looking at - what has you so mesmerized."
-Paul Washer (via michaelteng)and-and-ands
i realized today that i really like college!
i mean.. of course i miss the comforts of home like no other.
i miss it i miss my mama and my brother and my friends :(
but the little things..
like being alone and independent and walking around and gazing in awe at His beautiful creations and enjoying the simple pleasures that i so easily take for granted.
like grocery shopping.
i really enjoy grocery shopping :)
can’t wait to get my oooown place to buy new things and new furniture and new decorations and live a happy happy life with a happy happy family.
the future is an exciting thing, indeed it is!
hehehehhhhhh.
last night it just hit me— how much God has moved in my local community, in ROOTS, in ME, in my friends. seriously.. one by one, names, faces.. bam bam bammm just went off in my head haha. an epiphany struck: that soooo many people that we’ve been praying for, that i personally have been praying for.. skeptics, rebels, those with the hardest of hearts, even those who’ve been complacent.. all in all my beloved friends— transformed. hungry. seeking. chasing. acknowledging that He is Christ, that Jesus is Alive.
i was seriously immersed in a wave of joy. so much so that i wrote a facebook status about it. a very giddy facebook status, might i add.. hahah
for the past 3 days, i’ve been praying: “God teach me how to say hallelujah in spite of this awful tragedy. i just don’t know how to..”
whaddya know. i even managed to write “hallelujah” in my status. hahahahaha
didn’t make this connection until today.
God, you’re funny. You. is. funny.
for this my heart yearns not….
pride.
indisputably pride produces an almost pompous identity through God-given gifts such as intelligence, breeds the fanatical thirst to prove oneself, induces the longing to boast—either subtly, shamelessly, or sometimes even subliminally, and accentuates an elitist attitude, even if it is seemingly faint.. but one must realize that obstinance, anger, hardness of heart, rebellion against God, etc. also often stem from this one overarching principle of pride.
humility.
a demeanor no longer of MEMEME but of You, You, You.
“A man’s pride brings him low, but a man of lowly spirit gains honor.”
Proverbs 29:23
help me Lordddd.
chewing
why do we tend to hurt the ones we love most? what then is the definition of love.. is our understanding solely a meager derivative of love as defined by 1corinthians? do thoughts justify actions? what about suppressed actions.. in those cases do actions condone thoughts? is it because we are merely a fallen people as opposed to God who is Love, or who simply IS, that we cannot live up to the standard? or has the standard inherently been watered down..
i have literally never thought to question the essence of love before because i just throw the word around and i’m always like yay i love God i love family i love friends ILY *happy face* but it’s recently become such a seemingly foreign concept.. so. perplexed. can’t. articulate. brain. is. exhausted. o_o
maybe it’s a means of attack.
maybe it’s by virtue of circumstance.
either way…. hm.
